I don't know how long I have been hiding this... But this person (he's here in Newgrounds and I know his username) have ruined my life just for saying "originality is dead".
It was a comment about his character that looks like from a canon or copyrighted character. I told him that he should at least change his character looks and as I remembered, he said that it's ok and don't need to. Let's cut to the chase that he denied my suggestion and then telling me that originality is dead.
As an independent artist, I was unable to move on and I even thought that all my drawings and my characters that I make are not original. There are times I get inspired, and there are times I make my own ideas for my characters. That is what they called "creativity". So when he told me that, I suddenly felt like a worthless person on Earth.
I... attempted on ending my life just for that.
I didn't even graduated at college because of high tuitions, yet I continued to study and learn to draw on my own.
When I kept remembering what he said, I cried because I think I'm not good enough as an artist because I lack originality when I make art. I feel like my studies in drawing have wasted my life.
And now that AI have came to life, this person whom he said that "originality is dead" is now using AI to "create" art for himself, for his OCs and so on.
I once again struggled and cried because I feel like I'm a failure and this guy is probably mocking and backstabbing me from behind because he has this "thing" to make his OCs or art for his personal gain.
Once again, I attempted to end my life. Yet, here I am at the hospital and recovering. I shouldn't be living right now and just be dead because I feel that I don't deserve it. I don't deserve this life I have. I hated this person that I couldn't even forgive him. Probably he is mocking me once again together with his generator to make his art and OCs. He gained popularity because he kept generating art at DeviantArt.
I'm very stressed, frustrated, depressed and very anxious now. I wish I never wake up. I feel so hopeless and thinking that there's no point in living anymore. My dreams are even crushed while he gains more popularity with his AI.
I'm very sad. I'm completely shattered into millions of pieces. I'm so hopeless.
Pimsan20
You shouldn't listing to that person. He is not worth your time, the worthless person is the jerk who insulted you, thinking that using AI will get him the thing he want. But it doesn't, i know you are having a hard time, but please make sure to focus on yourself and do the things you like.
Keep telling others about this situation and show him that you're the better person here.
Crescent-Moon20
i tried to ignore the things he said long ago. yet, it felt like it hunted me every now and then. i keep on practicing on my art. i study and learn to draw, even wanted to buy tutorial books to have more resources. i focused myself so i can draw better. but him using AI is like he is insulting me more, and not to mention, his OC look like from a canon character, and his clothes is like a copy from Fate game. I ended up getting blocked by him for saying about his character, I pointed only what's best for his character
believe me, i tried to hide this for a very long time and tried to keep on drawing for the better despite not even graduating. i wanted to become an animator, but as I've said before, my dream have been crushed so i just study on my own
i didn't even used AI because i will not be a better person. i wanted to be better without it because i spent my entire life doing hardwork on every drawings i made T_T
But i really appreciate your words, your kindness and for telling me to focus on myself. i will do what i can to be better once more, i pray for my bestest. thank you so much?