Here to celebrate Madness Combat, still thinking what kind of drawing I'll do.

I'm discharged from the hospital, and got back home. Still feeling weak.

*Sighing depressingly.* I've been inactive for like 2 months now, and thought of continuing it until AI is over or idk when this will be truly regulated. It has affected all industries, and even jobs too. Some people think that scraping your content is ok, which is bullshit, I fucking hate this year, it's more worse than my previous years.

Aside from that, my father got into accident last month ago. He and my mother were traveling from our home to our small shop that is 10 kilometers away from our apartment. On their way, there's a goat on the road so he tried to avoid it, but he still ended up getting accident. Luckily, people there helped my parents and went to the nearest barangay and hospital. My mother didn't have much injuries, but my father has more wounds since he tries to save my mother. I got a call from my aunt about it, but she reassures me that my father is ok. We didn't told the accident to our grandmother because we don't want her getting stressed because of the accident.

Now it's September and my birthday is also close. I was told by the nurses and doctors that I can go home and will be discharged by next week. I'm not sure what I'm going to do next but thinking of getting a part-time job even though I have a full-time job with me. I don't get much commissions anymore so I'll try to get a part-time job whether it will worsen my health again or not. My incomes are low so I have no other choice but to work harder.... And maybe not dying... idk... I'm so stressed of everything and very sad at the same time.

It's been a month now and I haven't posted anything here, mainly I wanted to just see what my friends are doing without interacting with them. I haven't even seen what they posted on their gallery either as I've been away for just a month. It's not hiatus I'm doing, it's just that I wanted to... I don't know... stay dead or stay out of the Internet until it collapse soon? Anyway, life is fucking sucks right now.

*Sighs* I wanted to send my friends a DM here or in Discord, but I just thought maybe not, and those friends I trusted is that I just don't want to bring any AI news to them thinking that I'm just wasting my life, they might just say to me "adapt or die."

I don't even know if they're seeing the strikes by WGA, and SAG-AFTRA. And then came Disney animators and now the VFX artists from Marvel have joined the strike. What's going to happen now? Maybe a war? I'm afraid it might happen, but if this AI stuff won't be regulated, then what is left of the people like me? Dispose? I don't know... it's a cruel world I have.

This year is fucking suck, and it's also suck being an artist, plus I didn't even get to finish my college either. My non-artist job maybe good, but I don't get paid enough so I'm struggling and trying to save much as I can. It's hard... it's fucking hard....

I don't know when I'm going to post art again too. Maybe or maybe not, I don't know and I just couldn't think straight with what's happening in this world.

After venting on my last post, I didn't want to talk to my friends, and I thought to myself that they started to hate me. Thing is, I'm starting to lose trust to people whom I befriended with. I guess it is time for me to silence myself; When I say that, I'm not going to reply their comments, DMs, or whatever communication they can reach me. I'm very frustrated, very sad and very depressed. It's like they're even stabbing my backs, and thinking I'm just a worst person that they ever met. I'm probably alone once again.

When I sometimes visit DeviantArt, I lost interest to browse good arts there, and I even wanted to commission artists there to draw my OCs for me. Now it's just filled with AI art... these people who post their content wanted quick money and popularity to gain benefits for their own. And even if you try to tell them to pick a pencil, they won't care. They'll use these AI generators and post it on their gallery as if they made it for themselves when they just prompt it, and even have the audacity to do an art trade. Would you willing to do an art trade to a person who uses AI gens to "make" their own art?

Few of my friends there at DeviantArt seem to like AI art, mostly NSFWs of thicc girls. I feel sad and depress knowing that they like it and they think that it's all good and there's nothing bad on AI art. My friends even fave it. I think few of my friends don't know what is powering these AI art gens, I don't have to explain to them and felt more depressed thinking that I should adapt it or get left behind.... That's just hurt me even more. I felt like my friends betrayed me... again....

I've stayed at DeviantArt for so long that I don't call it a home anymore. I really want that garbage site to get shutdown soon enough.... Sadly, Artstation is also the same, the professional artists there that I used to know deleted their works and accounts because of AI art. And like them, they also want Artstation to get shutdown or fall; possible to sue them too I hope. I don't know why am I still living in this dreadful world, and I really don't know if the government would take any actions against the people who are building these AIs.

I am still trying to get to use Newgrounds but I will say it's more easy and manageable than DeviantArt, I hated when they changed their layout to Wix and it has so many bugs and the chat is also crappy.

I know I'm slow to post my art, but I'm still alive and trying to recover too.

...yet fighting for as long as I can. So many problems...

I have been resting a lot and I don't know how long it took after my seizures strike and went unconscious after that. I'm still at the hospital and I don't know when I will be discharged, but so far I'm alive and kicking.

Enough with that and I just wanted to review my friend, skylertoons, drawing since he posted new arts especially his Night Time story. Skylertoons, if you're reading this, I just wanted to show my comment of your drawing here because DeviantArt is not my place anymore. Though I still have an account there, just not active at all so I hope I can comment on your drawing here instead or if you post them on your Newgrounds account, I'll leave comment there too.

Night Time - Alternates

Been a long time since I last saw him draw of his Night Time characters. Most of the characters he draw are scary, and I still remember he draw a Night Time character of a clown (I have coulrophobia, I grew up with fear of clowns until now because when I was young, during my birthday, I got scared of them when they're celebrating it.) Anyway, my comment on your drawing is really cool and creepy at the same time. What even scares me are these monsters are more smarter than zombies. Aside from that, I thought you made them like your old drawings, the Venomized ones so I like the purple veins showing on their body here. I kinda like the left one as it looks like it's fully mutated.

Night Time - Poppers

This one is a very strange and odd-looking Night Time character, but I like how you draw it very nice. It's disturbing to see these spots that are covered on his entire face and body. What is more dangerous too is that they'll explode if you're near to them after it starts screaming then chasing you. Maybe if I add something about this character is if those spots are not just for like self-destruct or something like that, but maybe something to throw it at you and it will be explode, that's just my opinion.

So here's my review of about your Night Time characters, and I would look forward to see more ideas from you too. I'm also going to make a gift for you on your birthday, and practice my arm again. Hopefully my seizure won't trigger once I draw again.

...and still alive