I have been resting a lot and I don't know how long it took after my seizures strike and went unconscious after that. I'm still at the hospital and I don't know when I will be discharged, but so far I'm alive and kicking.

Enough with that and I just wanted to review my friend, skylertoons, drawing since he posted new arts especially his Night Time story. Skylertoons, if you're reading this, I just wanted to show my comment of your drawing here because DeviantArt is not my place anymore. Though I still have an account there, just not active at all so I hope I can comment on your drawing here instead or if you post them on your Newgrounds account, I'll leave comment there too.

Night Time - Alternates

Been a long time since I last saw him draw of his Night Time characters. Most of the characters he draw are scary, and I still remember he draw a Night Time character of a clown (I have coulrophobia, I grew up with fear of clowns until now because when I was young, during my birthday, I got scared of them when they're celebrating it.) Anyway, my comment on your drawing is really cool and creepy at the same time. What even scares me are these monsters are more smarter than zombies. Aside from that, I thought you made them like your old drawings, the Venomized ones so I like the purple veins showing on their body here. I kinda like the left one as it looks like it's fully mutated.

Night Time - Poppers

This one is a very strange and odd-looking Night Time character, but I like how you draw it very nice. It's disturbing to see these spots that are covered on his entire face and body. What is more dangerous too is that they'll explode if you're near to them after it starts screaming then chasing you. Maybe if I add something about this character is if those spots are not just for like self-destruct or something like that, but maybe something to throw it at you and it will be explode, that's just my opinion.

So here's my review of about your Night Time characters, and I would look forward to see more ideas from you too. I'm also going to make a gift for you on your birthday, and practice my arm again. Hopefully my seizure won't trigger once I draw again.

...and still alive

I've never been this depressed or anxious before too, and trying to keep my mental health good as I can after all the stuff I've said on my previous post. I'm trying to draw again, but I'm very slow and having seizures when I draw so it's hard for me yet I'm trying too.

I don't know when I will be discharged from the hospital. Probably not or so... I'm such a failure because this one guy ruined my life. He goes by the name of Shawn (most notable for his OC that have 3 versions; we blocked each other for a very very long time, then found out he has account here), and whenever I keep remembering what he said, it gave me nightmares all the time, like no matter how hard I try to make my art better, I will never be as good to what he writes on the prompts for his AI to create art for himself and to his OCs for his personal gain.

I tried to hone my skills for many years despite not graduating, I work so hard to draw something good. But now... I just feel like I want to give up being an artist... I even dreamt myself of becoming an animator but now, I won't be able to because of the current AI that is happening.

I'm not getting any good either as I'm having insomnia and experiencing seizures too. I lose over to him. I'm desperate and hard to move on because of him. I only wish I was in a coma for so long. I really don't want to stay in this wicked world I'm living.

I don't know how long I have been hiding this... But this person (he's here in Newgrounds and I know his username) have ruined my life just for saying "originality is dead".

It was a comment about his character that looks like from a canon or copyrighted character. I told him that he should at least change his character looks and as I remembered, he said that it's ok and don't need to. Let's cut to the chase that he denied my suggestion and then telling me that originality is dead.

As an independent artist, I was unable to move on and I even thought that all my drawings and my characters that I make are not original. There are times I get inspired, and there are times I make my own ideas for my characters. That is what they called "creativity". So when he told me that, I suddenly felt like a worthless person on Earth.

I... attempted on ending my life just for that.

I didn't even graduated at college because of high tuitions, yet I continued to study and learn to draw on my own.

When I kept remembering what he said, I cried because I think I'm not good enough as an artist because I lack originality when I make art. I feel like my studies in drawing have wasted my life.

And now that AI have came to life, this person whom he said that "originality is dead" is now using AI to "create" art for himself, for his OCs and so on.

I once again struggled and cried because I feel like I'm a failure and this guy is probably mocking and backstabbing me from behind because he has this "thing" to make his OCs or art for his personal gain.

Once again, I attempted to end my life. Yet, here I am at the hospital and recovering. I shouldn't be living right now and just be dead because I feel that I don't deserve it. I don't deserve this life I have. I hated this person that I couldn't even forgive him. Probably he is mocking me once again together with his generator to make his art and OCs. He gained popularity because he kept generating art at DeviantArt.

I'm very stressed, frustrated, depressed and very anxious now. I wish I never wake up. I feel so hopeless and thinking that there's no point in living anymore. My dreams are even crushed while he gains more popularity with his AI.

I'm very sad. I'm completely shattered into millions of pieces. I'm so hopeless.

My last drawing I did was for V-Day and after that, something happened to me. I've been frustrated and having anxiety like 2 months now and in result too I got accident so I got rushed in the hospital by my older sibling. I thought I won't be able to walk again. The rest of the weeks got worser for me. I can't breath and collapse randomly. I even thought I will never be able to draw again too, but here I am and recovering at the hospital.

I also told my boss about my incident, and I thought I would lose my job. Thankfully, my boss said that I'm ok to rest and work when I can. I'm practicing my hand so I can draw once again. I don't know when will I be discharge, but hopefully to recover soon.

I finally registered my artworks for copyright with my sibling's help. We have 3 names that were registered for copyright:

• CyberX Studio (in case we change our name, we can still update it), this is primarily my sibling and I's studio
• Infurno, this is my furry game idea, it's a fighting game
• Bloodlines, I used this name as it focus on story of the descendants of my main OCs

Ai art is becoming a huge pain in the ass as of now. I decided to add signature, watermark and copyright logo on every art I will upload (I will be also updating my previous arts too on every social media I have. I'll delete them and reupload them again too). I registered for copyright protection in my country as I read one of those AI experts on Twitter that we need copyright protection to 'protect' our artworks being used on their Ais so that's what I read on their tweets.

After DA slapped their new Ai called 'DreamUp', I decided to post my drawings here, and not going back to them until they fixed everything. When they launched it, all our arts are opt-in on their Ai and no one notify us about it. Then the next update yesterday, and they said that they set it back to default that our drawings are now opt-out, and we still have to fill out their form that if they update their Ai, it will not access our drawings or something like that.

And what I can say about DA is that they are nothing but thieves and greedy people. They supported Ai art, and our feeds have been flooded with it. More and more fake artists are coming there.

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